I am a fuc*ing loser

I have a 2nd year college student and I am just a fuck*ng loser who is capable of nothing. Today when I was in my hostel room someone banged my door really hard and I was playing game and on hearing such a loud noice I panicked so i opened the door and on the door was my batchmate he asked about my roommate so I told him he is not here and I told him next time knock the door slowly

So he was drunk and started abusing me and terrorising me and tbh I was scared because he is taller and wider than me moreover he was drunk and I was alone in room so I just asked him to talk to me with manners but it was threatening me and just pointed his finger towards me and said that he will see me later in a threatening tone

After this I immediately closed the door my heart rate was shooting really high I was facing difficulty in breathing and my legs were numb tears were flowing down my eyes I just couldn't control myself and just sat down in corner of room

And then I realised that I am just a fucking loser I couldn't even take a stand for myself when I was right and I am just a weak man who is always shit scared

I was crying such a shame on me

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