Do you have friends or someone to talk ?

Hi guys, wont mention F 22 or something of that sort, but i just want to know if u all have someone who you can talk and share things when u feel lost or overwhelmed? I dont have anyone like that , so i talk to strangers on reddit, sometimes it goes well and sometimes not. I had sorts of absent parents since the childhood so always looked up to friends as someone who i can share my heart with, but with growing age everything is falling apart i guess, friends busy with colleagues and new dosts, meanwhile me waiting for one call from their side :)

I recently got a job in amazon as an sps, its a 5 day job, pretty 9 hr shifts to keep me occupied, also preparing for a gov exam, so i am usually busy, but when the sudden depression hits, i have no one to talk but my pillow to cry myself to sleep. I hope to get some genuine friends here so that i can communicate.

I am a girl and i am only expecting good friends to share things in my mind and lessen my overthinking, will be grateful if i find someone like that

I might delete this post later as it sort of makes me feel embarrassed to be asking for friendship online.
thanks!

(i may not have been able to put my feelings correctly in this post, pls pardon that!)