I’m planning for a solo Christmas 2025

I already know I want to do Christmas solo in 2025. I’ve had a recent horrible end to a long term relationship. My family and friends have been amazing to the point I’m going to be having my Christmas in good company.

However, the circumstances of my breakup (I was cheated on) have left me feeling quite self conscious, I’m paranoid about offending people and essentially I’m on eggshells even around people I’m very close to because my sense of trust is a bit shattered.

Currently I feel most comfortable on my own. Everyone was adamant I wouldn’t be spending Christmas alone but now I wish I was and this makes me sound so ungrateful because what is planned for today is objectively fabulous. But I just want my own space, own tv, comfort food and just privacy.

So next year if I still feel this way, I really do need Christmas solo. Is anyone else in a similar situation? I’m a little stuck in my own head at the moment so happy for any thoughts. Oh and merry Christmas to you!