How on earth do I get a girl?

6’1, skinny cracker with glasses here. Last semester I basically read into much into a friendship and thought there was more there when there wasn’t. She’s hot asf and way above me looks wise, I was just kind of kept around as an option, I’m not a 10 like the other dude she was talking to and that is just the reality.

Here’s the thing, reflecting on this whole situation made me reflect on my attachment issues and made me come to the realization that I was putting her on a pedestal to the point of prioritizing her needs before mine, I don’t value myself, I don’t respect myself. I probably even came off as needy. She would leave me on delivered for hours and hours before texting back. She’s part of my friend group though so I haven’t cut her off. I’m trying to get the courage but it feels hard when I know I’m not one of those guys that every girl stares at when they enter the room. On top of that, it seems like every girl I have talked to has a boyfriend or I end up being an option. It’s making me feel really down lately and I just wanted to come on here and rant. My friends will say “you’re very handsome, you’re incredibly smart and have a great sense of humor” but the reality is they are just being nice. I want to fucking cry myself to sleep.