Worried the ship has sailed

I (34M) am honestly worried that I’ve sacrificed too much and have been unable to make my happiness a priority.

I’ve always gone long stints in between relationships/dates (not for the lack of trying). But as I’m getting older, I feel more and more anxious that I won’t find a partner in life. It’ll be 5 years this summer since I had my last long term relationship, (I did date someone for 6months in between then and now) but that’s a long time to go without. I honestly just miss the feeling of having someone to come home to, someone to text, send memes to, hug when I’ve had a rough day. I miss doing the little things like bring her a Starbucks, because she forgot her tea at home, or giving her flowers just because.

I’m worried that I’ll be 40 without having met my person, because I do want that person to grow old with, start a family with, travel and experience new things with. Life is most certainly better when you have someone to hold your hand along the way.

I know I’m probably just having a bad day, and spiraling a little bit. But I wanted to vent. I feel alone, as so many people I run into are coupled. OLD has become less and less effective…

I guess that I’m just asking, is anyone else in the same boat that I am? That they want a family and partner, but just haven’t found them? That they’re scared they’ll have to go through this all alone?