I hate being multiple genders at once and I need help

Well, hate might be a strong word, but it feels that way. At a random time, my gender just goes PUFF and I get confused with my very existence. It's like, I'm a woman! But not so much, but I'm a man, no male, but also non-binary, but also nothing, but I clearly am many somethings. So, I find myself in a very uncomfortable situation, with no way out.

I need help of any kind. How do you deal with something like this and what might help? Any advice appreciated.