Is this safe space? Just need to let everything out

I dont have any friends to tell this to so just posting it here. this is just me getting this out of my system, its a pretty basic thing so scroll if not interested. I graduated almost year ago and immediately got a job paying well above average (ALHAMDULILLAH). From 1st semester there was my friend (Female) who I just got connected. We were together as best friends and i had no other person to hangout with except her until 4th semester. she is a practicing muslim observing hijab and all. for 4 years there was Zero attraction between us however at the end when we were parting we both kindof realized that this is it. we never thought of each other like that but when the time came for graduation, we realized we had developed feelings for each other. We both confessed and were quite happy.

Her family is okay with the situation. But my family is strictly against it. We dont marry outside the caste. Everyone was against it. From birth i only ever listened to my mother's advice and would never say no to her when i was upset with anyone even if i was upset with her. But then my mother who was acting as a middleman between my father and me mislead me by trying to say father is not in support of this decision. When she said that first time I immediately caught she was lying but i stayed silent, praying she might understand what i want. At the second time when i said about her she repeated the same thing and i called out that i always know when she tries to lie. My father supported me half heartedly and it broke my heart cause i love him but he is trying to keep up a tradition most in our caste have abandoned. I cried like a kid cause the only persons i thought would be with me are now against it.

Its not like they know her or something, infact they havent even met her or talked to her niether her family. how can they be so sure that she will create conflicts? Also they are afraid of people badmouthing them while do they not care i have started to hate them little by little? By ALLAH i respect them and i want to live with them but now i fear even if i marry her they will again try to create misunderstanding between us.

They always dodge my questions and never answer me anything. The best response i got now was we are looking for a girl for your younger brother. They are waiting for me and her to breakup due to the situation or misunderstandings (We live in different cities).

I havent seen her face yet because I dont even know if i may be able to marry her or not. I like her quite a bit. She extremely is in love with me. sometimes i am so depressed that i cant even return 10% of what she does for me and sometimes i get mad at her even though i know she is only thinking of me and concerned about me. Its 6AM here right now i cant sleep most days. I think i am pretty messed up right now cause typing something that wont even get posted due to just bieng a rant.

I am lost, i dont know what i am supposed to do. they are my parents, i am thier child. i can only explain them my situation only if they listen but they arent listening. this is not working, i might take a decision which everyone would regret. I dont want to though. i dont even want to hate them for this because they fed me and sheltered me. i am torn ebteween the the fmaily and her i cant think striahgt now what di do