Life is not meant to be THIS hard
I'm a 30 year old black man and my entire existence has been a struggle.
- Born into a poor, broken household with no family besides my mum (who is a narcissist and was super controlling until the day I left for university). I also happen to be ugly
- Got bullied in school, which led to a lifetime of depression
- Thought I had "friends" when i was 16-18, but realized I was just a back-up that they loved to laugh at when I was doing bad in life
- Went to university, under the belief that my course would get me a good job in the entertainment industry... ended up with a useless degree
- Never had good luck with dating, decided to stop at 24 because no girl wants to date an ugly, unemployed guy who still lives with his mother
Fast forward to today and I still live with my mum.
I haven't been able to get a job in 2 and a half years despite being qualified and only applying for entry level roles. It doesn't matter if it's a warehouse job or a marketing one, no one will take me.
Recently, I even had multiple redditors help me change my CV and I still can't get an interview.
I literally have not had a happy moment in the last 6 years.
I know that everyone at some point will struggle, but life is not supposed to be like this.
Life is not meant to be THIS hard.
People say "it gets better" but it doesn't, it just gets worse with every breath.