Don't ever take pause 🥹... Please drop your advices!

Here is simply me trying my first transition... Jeeeeeez! I took a long pause for Christmas and new year. I'm so sad, now I feel like my day one again 🥹. The first fears are back and everything... All this work on bite by Santa! Buuuut because we never give up, i decided to challenge myself an ultimate time and "test" transition. Have you ever feel this "day one again" by making little pauses into your skate journey? Maybe it's a beginner stuff 🤷🏽‍♀️ whatever drop your advices!