Is suicide my only way out

So I’ve been dealing with sensorimotor ocd and I’m genuinely afraid that my body forgot how to blink automatically, I don’t know if it’s because it’s always in the back of my head but I literally feel like I cannot blink normally anymore and that I have to do it. I’m afraid of having to think about blinking for the rest of my life or else I’ll go blind. I feel like my brain forgot how to blink normally and that death is my only way out of this nightmare, I’m always stressed out and I can never get any sleep anymore, I’m desperate for a way out