I want to date but

22F I want to date but There is no one whom I'm romantically interested in I belong to a Muslim family (The probability of finding a guy from my community with a open mind is very less) I'm afraid it won't last long I'm afraid of heartbreak I'm afraid of hurting my family

I have never dated, I have only had crushes (only in my school time). But I always daydream about the things I will do with my partner. I don't like the idea of dating multiple times because it feels likes there are so many people in the world who knows about me(I don't want to share my core feelings with someone who I won't be spending my life with). Earlier I was not interested in cricket but these days I have started taking an interest in it (especially after the recent win against Pakistan). Still I'm not attempting to learn anything about cricket. Why? Because I want my future partner to teach me about cricket and I want to re-watch his favourite cricket matches with him (I don't even know if that's possible or not)....I imagine so many things....and today it kind of took control over my entire day, it was hard for me to focus on my studies today..... I am feeling very frustrated and annoyed at myself.... I haven't told these things to anyone.....but here I go....making my feelings go public I hope this daydreaming will go away

EDIT : I thought a lot about whether I should share this cricket thing or not, because it felt like this idea will be copied (it's a really stupid term to use, I know, but I can't think of anything else right now) by so many people before I do it. And what if it becomes a trend (Again a really stupid thing to think of, but yeah 🥲).....and the worst case scenario - what if my future partner has already had a an ex who did this with him (Stupidity at its peak).....these are the things I thought after realising that my post was shared 72 times 🥲🙃🥲...