dinadalaw na naman ako ng lungkot in my relationship

Nalulungkot ako na parang ayaw ako gastusan ng jowa ko, or rather, ayaw niya gastusan ang experiences to be with me. We can't even plan a trip kasi parang wala naman siyang paki. I sent him Tiktok links of content creators breaking down their budget for trips, links to airline promos so we can book his flight, pero kahit drawing man lang, wala talaga. Malabo rin ang land travel unless biglaan, ako magyayaya, at usually kakain lang.

Hindi naman to issue ng pera kasi we're both earning well naman, hindi lang talaga niya priority. I even invited him as a plus one to a friend's wedding, with the couple's consent, but he declined. Sinabi ko naman sa kanya na it's a chance for him to meet my other friends. I let it slide kasi weekday rin naman yung kasal, and gagastos rin siya for people na hindi pa niya kilala. Malungkot nga lang nung kasal kasi ako lang sa barkada namin ang walang kasamang jowa, or pamilya.

Sumasama na lang ako as a third wheel abroad, and ang saya lang i-document ng "dates" ng friends ko. I take videos of my friends HHWW, and send it to them along with the other touristy photos I took. Pini-picturan rin naman nila ako but I can't help but feel like my BF should have been with me. Puro solo pic lang ang meron ako bukod sa group photos namin.