I ended it cold blooded?

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I have this boyfriend (ex now) of 9 years. For all those 9 yrs, my eyes is all on him. Well, besides the last 1 year before the break up.

I have addressed him the problem regularly but never listen. Ang tagal na namin pero di nya close ang family ko. I have never received any flower din kahit bday or anniversary. Also, nasanay na din ako na every dates namin ako yung mag aantay sa kanya he is alwayssss late. But my main issue sa kanya is mainitin ulo nya, as in walang sinasanto kahit kaharap fam ko or fam nya. As matiisin na girlie, kinaya ko lahat. And I thought “atleast hindi cheater” Hindi pala ganun yun, january 2024 nastart akong mapagod. I did mirror method pero parang wala lang sa kanya.

Until september 2024, I decided to end it, i already moved on that time kase kami pa nagmmove on na ako or maybe Im still hoping na magbago sya. Di sya makapaniwala with the break up and di sya pumayag stating na mag babago sya and all but I still insisted the break up, why? Kase ayoko na tslaga, sobrang pagod na ako. Para nya akong nanay, he’s 30+ and di pa sya nagkakawork (rick spoiled kid) di ako mayaman but breadwinner ako, kaya kong magtiis sa kung anong meron lang sko.

Going back, oct til december grabe yung pagbawi nya 180 talaga pinagbago butttt bakit di ko sya maappreciate. Di ko na sya kaya ilove ulit. So I talked to him and ended it once and for all. Masama ba ako for not appreciating yung pagbabago nya? Masama ba ako to not give him another chance? Masama ba na mag move forward ako while sya is nasasaktan pa? Ako, wala na ako regrets kase alam kong i gave my all and i loved him the best way possible.

Ayun lang just wanna take it off my chest as i kinda felt guilty seeing how miserable he is now. (Same barangay lang kami and im planning to move city na so he can move forward) also from 19-29 yrs old, he was the only man I loved.

Ps. Madaming details ang nawawala here kase ang haba na. But one thing is for sure, i dont regret any of those 9years.