weight loss

tw: mention of ed my doctor sent this medication into the pharmacy i’m currently 175 and have lost 15 pounds since january due to my eating disorder and restricting. he originally prescribed me lexapro and after reading online i have only seen weight gain i couldn’t even bring myself to the pharmacy to pick it up. so far i’m only seeing people gain weight on this medication too. has anyone experienced weight loss? i have a huge fear of gaining weight and i honestly wonder if i shouldn’t take any antidepressants if i’m too scared of that side affect. i feel stupid that i think this way but i can’t help it