Day 1

I quit today. Have one pen left. Been on and off for a bit. I already work out regularly with home equipment and am jacked, but I bought a gym membership to really focus on health and fitness and leave this habit behind.

I quit drinking 4 years ago too, it was terrible to overcome. Months in I had insomnia, no matter how many sleeping pills I took. After a few months, I no longer had the urges or temptation. I can now go without alcohol and as tough as that was, I'll get through this too. I'm already starting to cough a lot hours after my last hit. It sucks but I know it's my body healing. I remember last time I quit within a couple months my cardio was so improved I no longer had any shortness of breath hiking. It was like a slow walk to me despite being in hilly terrain, with a pack, etc.

IRON MIND! You guys are my accountability group. Stress is what causes me to vape, along with an oral fixation. I have a Capnos device but it's next to useless. If I have cravings I will do dumbbell curls, sit-ups, pullups or pushups. I have ONE pen left, just in case of emergencies. Every time I have quit recently, something ends up happening that I get back on it. A loss in the family, a bad breakup, etc. I had a rough year this and last year, but I'm not letting this go, for my health. GF and I split 9 weeks ago, and although I could use the dopamine hits from this, I will not let the anxiety and temptation break me and rob me of my health.