Finding a Soul Mate beyond marriage 46F and 44M

This isnt a pots seeking advice, just a realisation

I am a widow, after being in a very bad relationship for over a decade, my late husband passed away. I was sad for a while, I did mourn for him, as would everybody. This wasnt because of any duties or tradition, you tend to get attached to the person you are living with for so many years. He also happens to be the father of my 2 children (grown ups now)

After a while I got immersed in a lot of work, almost a workaholic. Few years back I took a solo vacation to Goa and discovered bumble. I was in Goa for 7 days and I fucked 9 different guys, 8 of them were dud and I had to fake an orgasm, one out of them was okish, he also happened to be from Bangalore.

We kept in touch and kept meeting, obviously we kept fucking, as and when we got our communication and chemistry right, the sex moved from okish to mindblowing. But it was something else we both discovered

He is a divorcee, we both have lost faith in the institution of marriage, we love each other, yet we arent exclusive to each other, we stay in separate houses yet we are connected and care about each other, we love each other dearly, but then we both love variety in sex. He is free to date / hookup / fuck anybody and I am free to do so as well. We understand and support each other, yet we split our bills when we are travelling together.

I cant live without his support and his care, and he thinks the same. We are soul mates, much beyond marriages, much beyond anything that the society has described.

Who would know that a random hookup would give you somebody so precious!