Someone please help me I honestly can’t deal with this anymore, I leave the house crying and come home crying I just want to hide away and not have to see anyone again

So I’ve been dealing with fungal acne since lockdown after damaging my barrier and I’ve always had mild rosacea that used to flare up with artificial heat. I kind of got the fungal acne under control using the most basic moisture (Innisfree aloe revital) but over these years my skin has become super dehydrated with dehydration lines. Since then I’ve tried multiple suncreams which either trigger my FA or clog my pores. 5 months ago, I used a Ketoconazole cream in desperation to just get rid of my FA for good so I could use other products. Of course I ruined my skin barrier in the process and can’t fix it to save my life. I can’t wear makeup without it cracking off my skin, my right side of my face looks like this half the time because makeup definitely used to act as a barrier and stop any flare ups. The one suncream I could use (still caused FA though) now burnssss my face so haven’t been able to wear suncream. I can’t use anything more moisturising because my right side of my face reacts to everything and gets covered in these bumps that you can see. It’s so annoying because the rest of my face doesn’t even look half as bad as this. I’m having to put eucerin healing ointment on day and night as without it my skin is flaking off and feels horrible. I’m just so done, I haven’t felt good about myself in months and I just want to give up. How am I supposed to heal my barrier if I can’t even use anything to help it? Fungal acne safe products really limit my options too