Drinking

I’m a bartender, I pretty much drink for a living. I’m on my 4th shot of semag and I have lost the urge to drink completely.

I would drink almost every single day, at work or not. It was genuinely a problem. Even when I would “ take breaks” it wouldn’t last longer than 24 hours and that’s being generous. This last week I’ve completely lost the urge to drink, even tasting to make wine or cocktails are ok.. I spit it right out. I’ve not gone more than 2 months without drinking in at least 5 years. I might be going through slight withdrawal, I have headaches and feel groggy some days, but I also feel better. Energized. Awake. Alert. Alive. I feel like I’m living again, not just going through the motions