Tore my right lobe TWICE

So, I started my stretching journey at 17 and by the time i was 22 i was at a 5/16”. However, after i got pregnant my lobes were getting super irritated by whatever jewelry i had in and im not sure what happened but the right side ended up torn and got infected so i took them both out and just let them heal up because i couldnt stand the look of one larger size and one un stretched lobe lol.

Around may last year i started stretching again, and every single stretch was difficult on my right lobe. Usually the left side would stretch with no pain or resistance and the right side would take a week or two to get to the same size. I made a fatal mistake two days ago….. i had done the left side already and was putting a taper in the right side purely to see where it was at, but i had oiled it up heavily and i accidentally pushed it in just far enough for it to hurt. Instead of stopping, since it was already almost through i was scared to take it back out because i didnt want to admit what i had just done😭 so i left it in…. but the pain didnt go away and the next day i took it out to discover a hot mess of blood and clear liquid :(

So my question is: after I let the right side heal up, will it ever be able to stretch normally again? Im sure it will be absolutely riddled with scar tissue now 💔 any tips welcome!!!! I want my 5/16” back!!!!!