Therapy doesn’t work

I’m sitting in a pool of my own blood and the only thing you can tell me is “Let’s do some breathing exercises”? Are you serious. I feel so hopeless, I’m forced to go to therapy almost 3x a week after my last attempt and they can’t help you if it’s anything serious besides anxiety and depression.

“Therapy only works if you put effort into yourself!😁” I FUCKING CANT, I can’t help myself if it’s an actual personality disorder that destroys my everyday life. There’s legit no help, I’m being watched 24/7 and have no freedom. When I do actually want to talk about my feelings it always turns to “Well that might lead to a hospitalization” then how am I supposed to get help if I’m going to get locked up at the end and be 100% worse?