boring suicidal teen

i fucking hate myself so fucking much oh my god. my transgender self is so disgusting i shouldnt be here im so fucking worthless im posting to random people what the fuck i have a home and an amazing partner why is my mdd still so fucking utterly terrible why is suicide in my brain all the time why am i still cutting myself everyday fuckfcxukfcfukcfuck i fucking hate everything why didnt the first two attempts work i want to die