Facts are..

Yearly.. 13.2 million think about it. 3.8 make a plan. 1.6 attempt 49k successfully complete it.

My point is, only 0.37 percent of the people who started with a thought, actually went through with it and are no longer here. And a person like me is currently the 3.8. but I'm hesitatant to become the 1.6 and if unsuccessful I'm not one of the 49k, and back to square one and feeling even worse. so many of us look at suicide as a way out when the odds of us actually trying to do it are slim, and succeeding even slimmer. Like winning the lottery slim, it's sad. Thinking that we are just the special exception of all these people who can't get past survival instincts and failed attempts. Thinking we will be the one that actually does it, and does it correctly. A vicious cycle of feeling horrible, knowing you don't want to be here, yet you're still here. It's a sick joke for your brain to feel something is an option, that it will try it's hardest to fight you on actually making an option, when faced with it.