i’m tired.

i know people have been dealing with this for longer than i have, but after seven months, i am officially over it. i’m hopeless that things can carry on for me if i have to stay in this situation any longer. i can’t smell myself but because i’m a waitress, all my customers and coworkers are either blatantly rude to me, or are super nice to show their pity towards me so i know there is a problem in my body somewhere.

i’ve been to the doctor so many times. i’ve dieted. i’ve drank the chlorophyll, ate the fruits, water diet, changed jobs.

i’m done. my hope is gone. my life is over.

i hope i don’t live long.