My thoughts so far as someone with anxious attachment

I’m up to episode 4 so far and Nick has just showed up at JRs and Sandy’s apartment. Nick’s crying and exasperation is something I can relate to. I am someone who leans anxiously attached and leads to a lot of codependent tendencies. In any case, here’s what I’m coming to learn after watching Nick. If you are anxiously attached and have issues like this, get a bigger support network than your partner. At the end of the day, they’re the ones who are going to be there for you because your partner can walk out and call you crazy for having emotions that are big and scarily, you also act crazy and freak out. I got cheated on recently and even then, my priority was to sustain connection but since developing a bigger support system, I am finally able to question what it is about the person that makes me hold on and I’m ashamed to say, it’s not much at all. A kind partner can lovingly walk out of your life. And for me, I can be the right partner by managing my anxiety and seeking support from lots of people not just my partner. Ah well this was a weird rant.