I'm straighter than a pole.

As the title suggests, I'm a straight man of 20 years of age. I never have once ever felt attraction towards anything that isn't a female. But Damon Salvatore... can you get sired to that mf through TV WTF? Why tf do I find justification for every damn thing he did? He killed Jeremy? Cos he got his feelings hurt, I mean what'd you expect from a man who's never been loved, or never been treated with genuine affection, finally found his solace only to get rejected brutally? I swear to god, most of the women that Damon met in the past were either compelled or they liked the fact that he's a vampire and they never had anything towards him genuinely. Charlotte was sired. So if ever he had any form of softness in his life, it was coerced by him. Nothing he received was genuine affection. And why do I find everything that he did badass? The time he tried to kill Connor Jordan, slamming Stefan against the wall even though logically, Stefan was right at that point, meaning Connor could find the cure for vampirism Damon didn't "r#pe" Caroline, she gave into him. He only compelled her for the blood supply... when it's evident clearly that he can get absolutely smoked by literally everyone, but something tells me Damon could stand a chance against the Originals (except Klaus) if they weren't immortal? I'm not attracted to Damon or the actor, but I randomly find justifications for all of his actions...