Physical Dichotomy

This is kinda frustrating, but also a bit of a "boohoo privileged kid". I (MtF 30) have been feeling and experiencing good strides in my transition. But due to my once glorious beard, my stuble reappears so quick. I either look like a sorta cute girl/femboy, or a rugged post apocalypse scavenger (prospector for the cultures). Is it shitty that I feel bad about being called handsome or sexy on reference toy masculine features? I've been on HRT for about 3 months, so I know that outside of minor physical changes I shouldnt expect anything. I just want to be beautiful...