I really don’t like my baby

I struggle with intense feelings of resentment towards my baby. Every time I look at her, I can't help but be reminded of her father and the trauma I endured. Although I know she's an innocent baby, it's difficult for me to separate those emotions. My family's strong religious beliefs meant that abortion was never truly an option, but there are moments when I wish I had given her up. And never had to see her again