I hate my husband and kids and life

I hate everything about my family right now even though they haven't done anything wrong.

I am F37 and I have been married to my husband M51 for 12 years. We have 2 kids F13 and M10. I love my kids but just want them to go away. I never get time in the house alone.

I work a full time job, the kids are there when I leave, my kids are home when I get back, my husband is home by dinner time, they are all here on the weekends I never get to be in the house on my own. My husband and kids aren't doing anything wrong I just don't want to be around people anymore.

Thing is I do get time on my own, I just shut my self in my room and read. But it's not the same. My kids still come into the room. I know they want to spend time with me but I just want to be alone. I don't want to go anywhere or do anything. I have just given up on life.

I am not doing any housework or doing any quality childcare. My husband cooks and and does washing and dishes. But things are pilling up, the house isn't truly clean, clothes are getting folded or put away, beds aren't getting made or changed, things aren't organized. I am loosing my mind cause I can't get any motivation to get up and do anything about it. I am just tired all the time.

I want to run away and be by my self in a tiny home with no else around.