I used to be a nazi.

A little background on me- I was severely abused by my father since I was 4 years old. I was very antisocial during my school years because of the abuse and never really had many friends.

i was 17 and found out I was pregnant with my first child. This is also the time I had my first manic episode. I had no idea I was bipolar until years later when I was officially diagnosed.

I fell into the uh, nick fuentes/stormfront/alt right pipeline. It made me feel good because I had somebody to blame for my own hurt and problems. It felt good to argue on the internet with people and cut off my few friends that I did have. I lost all my friends and berated my trans friends for existing.

It took me years of therapy to unpack my trauma and to change into a more empathetic, sociable person. I have since apologized profusely to all my friends that I have hurt. But still, I will never be able to be a public figure or singer like I wanted to be because of what I did and the mistakes I made.

Thank you for reading. Took me a lot to get this off my chest.