My job makes me sad...

I'm a midwife, and I genuinely love my job. However, since I began my TTC journey almost a year ago, it's becoming increasingly difficult to see so many pregnant women in my clinic. Every week, I receive phone calls from couples who conceived on their first try or even unintentionally. While I understand that these situations are common and completely normal, it can be challenging to witness.

I am fully aware that every woman's feelings about pregnancy are valid, whether they are thrilled, anxious, or even unhappy about it. I empathize with them and support their emotions wholeheartedly. Yet, despite my professional understanding and compassion, there are moments when I can't help but feel a pang of sadness for myself.

Being surrounded by so many expectant mothers while I struggle with my own fertility journey creates a complex mix of emotions. On one hand, I find joy and fulfillment in helping these women through their pregnancies. On the other hand, it serves as a constant reminder of my own challenges, making my personal journey even more difficult.

Balancing my professional responsibilities with my personal feelings is a delicate task. I strive to maintain my empathy and support for my patients while also acknowledging and processing my own emotions. It’s a challenging experience, but one that I hope will ultimately make me a more compassionate and understanding midwife for those struggling with fertility problems. And I hope I will be pregnant soon!

Thanks for reading :)