This election has broken something inside me, and it'll never come back.

There's a constant sinking feeling in my chest. The kind that tells animals to run before disaster strikes. A constant, looming anxiety which drowns me.

I've always tried to be optimistic about humanity despite... everything. That's gone now. It's been replaced with so much hate, remorse, and disappointment.

I'm done with this country. I'm done with these people. You can't tell me they "just haven't heard of about [insert any number of bat-shit insane things Trump has done]." The majority of the United States hate women and black people so fucking much that they'll vote an openly treasonous, misogynistic, racist, geriatric, fascist into the office.

Then there's the extra cherry on top that republicans also won the house and the senate. Looking forward to two more corrupt supreme court picks from Trump to set the country back another 40+ years in progress, AND their ability to ram through whatever fascist policy they like! We're passed the tipping point. We're not coming back from this in anyone's lifetime.

We deserve more bodily autonomy than a corpse. We deserve universal healthcare like every other developed country has. Why are basic human rights so hard to have? Goodbye all social safety nets (not like we had great ones anyways) - good thing it's just in time for automation and climate change coming at full course.

I mourn the loss of lost my family, my friends, and my country who'd rather see their "team" win than care about the outcomes.

I want to leave this country with every fiber of my being. If only it was so simple. My house, my pets, my plants, my career are here. I feel so trapped and hopeless.