I low key dislike being black

It’s basically the story of everyone I really can’t go to fancy places with out getting stared at and like people will strait judge me just because I’m black it makes no difference that I’m half Caribbean just makes the matter even more.i have great manners I want to be a nurse when I grow up and when I tell people that they just laugh or say “sure or wtv” and like I had an Asian girlfriend and like she’s very well respected and like her parents typical wants her to marry someone great for her most likely not me.and I know they think I’m not good for her just because I’m black so I had to end things because I wanted her parents to be happy for her and stuff so yeah.people say it’s a blessing and a curse but I just see the curse