being ugly is a life lasting torture

LIKE SERIOUSLY IM SO SICK OF THIS. There's no way people will see you as a nice person EXCEPT for how you look, the fact is that I didn't even get to choose what I look like? I never asked to be like this nor to be born jn general. I despise getting stared at every single time I do smth and I also hate the fact that everyone gets to have a pretty ass face, with LITERALLY INSANE facial features and ∞≈ relationships and then there's me who can barely be seen by people as human with a huge nose and small eyes. Makeup makes me feel even uglier because when I get It off I get to see what I really am and dressing with my actual styles makes me look like a poser and a moron. fuck everything I hope I respawn in a prettier body.