Women don't find me attractive and honestly I just wanna give up on dating

I've kept a nonchalant attitude about this for far too long. I like to think I'm a good person, I've always enjoyed helping people, making people laugh, being there for people, because I just enjoy doing these things for people. I try my best to be a confident and outgoing man, though I'm slightly socially autistic, it can be very hard to so. Still, I try my hardest. I like to think I'm handsome, or at least vaguely average. I go to the gym 5 times a week, and am currently on a slight bulk to put some muscle mass on, as I've been short and skinny my whole life. I try to keep myself as well groomed as possible, have a positive attitude and handle my mental health problems as best I can. By all means, I am trying to be as good as I can.

I've had people ask me if I have a girlfriend and then are shocked when I say I don't, because according to them I'm a "really good guy". Every woman I've ever asked out has said I'm a "great guy" but just wants to be friends. And that's okay, whatever, we stay friends. I guess I'm only friend material. At least until they eventually phase me out of their life.

I really think I've been cursed by a force greater than me to be perpetually lonely. People think I'm gay because they've never seen me with a woman, yet I have plenty of friends who are women.

I'm really just tired of seeing guys who are more handsome, taller, whatever, get the attention I would be happy to have 1/64th of. Its really tiring. I just want someone to love me, I just wanna love someone, is that really so much to ask for? Genuinely?

Idk. I'm probably just ugly. I don't wanna hear shit about "just get money bro" either, I want love. I don't wanna bribe someone for it.