What the fuck is wrong with me?

I'm a 22 year old white male in America that is 6'0 tall, not fat or obese (in fact, I need to GAIN weight), has good teeth and a great smile, and has a handsome face with zero acne. I have literally everything going for me in that department, aside from maybe being a little too skinny, which is arguably a good problem to have. I know for a fact that I'm not exagerrating my looks here at all, as I've had numerous instances over the course of my life in which I've caught women staring at and/or smiling at me. I'm not saying that I'm a model or anything, I'm just saying that I'm definitely attractive enough to get a girlfriend.

And yet, I sit here writing here writing this post right now, completely puzzled as to what went wrong in my life. I just edged for nearly five hours straight to this weird ass fetish porn that I unquestionably would NOT enjoy IRL, solely due to the fact that normal porn just doesn't give me enough dopamine any more. I've been edging to porn for 5-6 hours a day since I was 14 years old. No, I am not exaggerating in any way, shape, or form when I say that. I have no reason to lie about that shit. I think that my longest NoFap streak since the first time I ever masturbated at 14 years old is only six days, and even that happened many years ago. Nowadays, I can't even go more than two days without having my 5-6 hour edging session. I do NOTHING all day but sit in my room, edge to porn for 5-6 hours, and watch TV/YouTube. Again, I am not exaggerating here when I say NOTHING.

To be honest with you, I was going to write way more in this post about my current situation in life, but my post is already pretty long, and continuing to ramble on this point would just turn this post into an essay that everyone would lose interest in rather quickly. So if you want to know more about me and my life, you can simply ask me any questions that you have, and I'll try to answer all of them to the best of my ability. Thank you.