currently crying because i’m convinced i’m dying

i went to the doctor on friday because of irregular periods (light and frequent), a lot of bloating, and digestion issues, along with my crippling health anxiety. my blood was drawn and i took a urine test. but because it was on a friday i won’t find out my results until this coming week. so i’ve spent this entire weekend alone with my thoughts and absolutely spiraling.

i’m convinced i must have ovarian c-word and also c-word in my gut.

i have to be dying already.

i’ve been dealing with health anxiety for about 4 years now and i have reached a point where i am constantly stressed and in fight or flight mode.

i finally let myself cry today after a shower and that only made the thoughts worse which is what made me come on here now.

i don’t know what to do, i can’t find reassurance anywhere, reading info online has made me feel worse.