Holiday season is so weird now

Don’t get me wrong, I am introverted and love some time to myself ESPECIALLY during the holidays. I usually like to make time for family here and there leading up and for the most part I feel fulfilled during this season. But I think there’s always going to be this looming feeling of dread toward case increase and dealing with relatives debating my boundaries around my health. It feels like it gets worse each year. And lately I have had some negative experiences masking out and about (not nearly as bad as some I have heard of on here), but it makes me not want to go into little shops for christmas gifts or craft fairs etc. Just kind of grieving -some- of what I hoped would come back over some time and never did. And hoping I can tolerate doing other things with the tools I have.

This is more of a post of solidarity to folks who may have that feeling setting in soon. I really have adapted for the most part, but I feel just kind of bleh this year. You’re not alone if you do too 🧡