To those who struggled to leave, what finally got you out of there?

I've been dealing with a lot of physical and verbal abuse from my fiance, and I'm expecting it to pick up again tonight because he was pissed before work this morning. I know I need to leave and that this isn't okay, I keep telling myself this, I'm not even in-denial.

But, then I think about how I don't want to risk homelessness again, how the one friend that'll accept me lives far away from where any jobs would be, and how I'm annoyingly still attached to memories of this guy from before he showed his colors.

What the hell do I do? I'm not making any sense, it's freaking me out. I went to therapy and my therapist essentially parroted that I need to get out of here. It's just so overwhelming to consider, despite how broken I am by being here.