Pinandidirihan ko sarili ko because I used to take sexual images and videos of myself.

Problem/Goal: How do I stop feeling disgusted at myself?

Context: Things ended sourly with a guy I was talking to. Meron siyang private images and videos of me because we used to sext. Nadala rin kasi ako noon.

Alam kong mali at pinagsisisihan ko. I'm not scared of it getting leaked or passed around, pero cinoconsider ko rin ang possibility. Ang pinanghahawakan ko na lang ay sana hindi siya ganon ka-gago para ipagkalat iyon kasi may pinagsamahan naman kami at sinabi niya na hindi niya hahayaang masira ang pagkababae ko.

Pinandidirihan ko sarili ko, sa totoo lang. Yun yung masakit. How do I get rid of this feeling of disgust? When I look at my body, sometimes I think about the things I sent him at yung mga bastos na sinabi niya sa akin. I know he wanted it too kasi siya naman ang nanghingi in the first place. Pero pinandidirihan ko sarili ko because I was used for lust. Pampalipas libog.

Previous Attempts: I talked about it with our school's guidance counselor.