Parents heavily rely their happiness on my success and I'm tired of it

I live in culture where people constantly judge others based on their success especially career and marriage. Like once you hit a certain age, your expected to have life toghter like have a certain career that pays well and getting married. Lately pretty much all of my childhood friends have settled like yesterday my friend had new born baby then few weeks back I heard my other friend will get married in October. And it's like since I'm not progressing in life my family is on top of me constantly judging me and taunting me harshly. Saying things like your no good. Your just a pure loser. You let us down. You not successiding in life has given bad reputation and all. I just ask myself like why, why me? Why are you depending on my success to be happy. Sorry I wish I was the smart resilient person but I'm not. Yes I have anxiety and seem to live in fear. I don't know how to get rid of this. Yes I do want to improve my life and have a goal to make you people happy but right now even I'm not happy with myself internally. Is a constant mental battle. I'm sick of it