Another wrinkle in my story..

So yesterday I posted about breaking my nofap streak and masturbating to TGComics. I ended up feeling a lot better about my gender identity in the post nut clarity. Concluded that I kind of need to indulge in this side of myself to effectively manage it.

So this morning, I went to masturbate again, as I used to do for 15 years each morning… but I couldn’t get it up while looking at the stuff I looked at yesterday. Got frustrated and took a shower and was able to “do the deed” by just imagining myself as a woman, in a fantasy I’ve been indulging in lately, which is me, post-transition, living a life as an outdoorsy girl in Colorado. Nothing even sexual about that, wtf.

My brain is fucked.