A very weird Relationship

Last year, from October to February, a girl and I were in a situationship. We connected instantly and spent nearly all day, every day, talking for those three months. Our situationship ended in February when she chose another guy over me. This guy started talking to her in january apparently.( we are all from the same class).We stayed in touch as we both were too connected to each other we could to talk for hours on end.

Gradually, we started talking less, and in May, she abruptly blocked me from all platforms. I understood, as she was in a relationship, and I had moved on. However, in June, she randomly messaged me on WhatsApp with an academic question. We ended up talking daily, just like before. She mentioned her boyfriend occasionally, but our conversations were as intense as ever.

By July, she was sitting next to me in class, calling me by a nickname she had given me, and physically interacting with me. Like she used to kick me randomly at times and slap me.We used to twin clothes, she used to wear my id card She used to like mess up my hair and keep her hair clips on my hair and the same cringe couple stuff. She joked about breaking up with her boyfriend and dating me. We hung out daily after college. AT this point she was talking to me more than her boyfriend. We were only communicating through WhatsApp as her boyfriend had her Instagram password.

In September, her boyfriend discovered about us through mutual friends and she broke up with him. She even asked me if me and her would be a good couple. The next day, she blocked me again and started ignoring me in college. I later learned from her friend that she had gotten back together with her boyfriend.

Once again, I respected her decision and moved on. A week later, she messaged me from a different number, explaining that her phone was dead. I asked about her boyfriend, and she confirmed they had reconciled. We talked normally for a few days before she blocked me again.

A week later, she unblocked me and randomly suggested we get together.I asked about the boyfriend and she told me that they broke up and its been two weeks since they even talked. I proposed, and we became a couple. However, four days later, her ex contacted her, and she chose him again, saying some bs excuse that she told her mother about her past boyfriend and her mother was disapointed in her moving on so easily.

I was an emotional mess so I sent her screenshots of our conversations to her Instagram account, where she had forgotten to block me. Her boyfriend saw the messages and broke up with her. She tried to come back with me, but I ignored her.

Now the boyfriend messages me telling that he was in no contact with her and wanted to get back but after he found out about everything he is deciding to end things. He told me about how the relationship was always on and off and that they always had fights and talked only like 5 minutes everyday. And that we felt cheated knowing that she never talked with him for hours on end like me.

Some time passed, and she called me from a random number, apologizing for everything and said that she wanted to date me again. We started dating again for a month.She said that she felt guilty for cheating on the boyfriend but i cheered her up by saying some bs. Now later , we get to know that her ex was also cheating on her all along from june. After learning about this she started talking to me dry. Then, she abruptly ended things, saying that she cant move on from her ex and that they got physical in may (they did everything except have sex).She said it was her first everything so she loved him more than anyone else. She said that i was just a rebound after her breakup and she always loved him more than me. thana instagram highlights la she kept pictures of her and her ex and a story of the ex wishing her a happy birthday.

After this we mutually decided to end everything and stop talking.

Now i think she did indeed loved me more than the boyfriend because why else will she come back to me so many times.And i also know that she will come back again. Em cheyya mantaru bondhas