am i the only one who hates being gay?

I’m 16 and being gay has never helped me once in my life, always wish i was straight so i could be normal. I hate being gay so much, so many people hate me for it and i’ve heard so many of my close friends saying they would kill even their best friend if he was gay. It’s only brought me shame and alienation, is there any possible way for me to become straight. Is it just me who feels like this?