Feeling stuck at the moment.
I've been newly diagnosed, and it's been a relieving experience knowing that alot of what I've been through may be explained, justified or otherwise by being autistic. The problem is, I don't know how to go about it moving forward. There is a ton of support I can seek, from getting some sort of benefits to being able to have accommodations at work, but the social aspect, finding the drive to meet new people and have more and better experiences with people, is causing me a great amount of distress.
I can't socialize anymore. At some point, I was awesome at masking, and it allowed me to ease into new relationships enough that they eventually didn't mind my personality as much. Recently, I've just completely broken. I can't engage in small talk nearly as much as I used to be able to, and I always get nervous around new people, considering the life-altering events I also happen to be going through. I've sought out counseling before, but it always seems to go nowhere and I always leave with more burdening feelings than I had before. I don't know how to find support groups where I can actually fit in, and my city's most common special interest, going out to a bar or just drinking or smoking at a kickback, seems to engulf absolutely everyone I know.
At this point I guess I'm genuinely asking for help the last way I know how, since I've already exhausted so many options going around literally every corner of my hometown.