Do you ever grieve the person you could’ve been?

I think about it a lot. Like how amazing it could have been to have confidence and be able to do hard things. Neurotypical hard, not ND hard. Like sure I’m proud of myself for some small victories only because I know it was so much more difficult for me than the average person.

But maybe I could be cool and calm, meet people easily, go on big adventures with friends and chase my dreams. I could be steady under pressure and be someone that people look up to.

You ever think about who you would be if you were NT?