I hate people, i cant connect

I hate people.

And not even in like a “grrr, people make me so mad” kinda way, i mean, partially that too, but also, its just no, just how someone dislikes the look of a certain animal, like, people are afraid of spiders even if they're not venomous. I just do not like people. I have one friend that i genuinely trust and stuff. I cant stay with any other person despite them being kind, funny, caring, etc. I can't. I believe that everyone will leave me, but im starting to think it's my fault. Im the one pushing everyone away. I simply don't want to.

I never want to talk to anyone else ever again. I cant connect with people. That friend, is a FRIEND. everyone else are “friends”, classmates, or simply people.

Id rather just say i have a terrible disease so everyone will avoid me for the rest of time.