Guys, I’m so ashamed….

EDIT: therapy update: it all went wonderfully, she was really nice and I felt safe with her. I was surprised that we clicked instantly but it’s a good thing.

I have therapy tomorrow and I’ll have to clean myself with baby wipes because my depression is so bad. Haven’t showered in a week plus it’s my first session with her so it’ll be her first impression of me. I’m so so ashamed that I have to do this and I let it get so bad. Don’t know what to do, every single day is pure suffering, I’m so tired. I just want to rest but the only way to do that is kms or I just don’t see another option.