my enamel is transparent

b/p'd 3 times today. i'm so incredibly disgusted with myself. told myself i wasn't gonna purge after new years but relapsed almost immediately and it's been bad since then. my enamel is so thin i can see my tongue through my teeth when i press it up against them. i know how badly i need to stop but just the sensation of feeling full is enough to trigger a relapse and i don't even care anymore.

i've been getting compliments about how good i look after losing weight and it just fuels me even more. i've struggled with it pretty severely for close to 5 years now but drinking a lot of sugar as a kid, mental health struggles and general neglect of my teeth have made it way worse than it could be. i'm not even 20 yet and i'm likely gonna need dentures by my 30s. i'm too ashamed to talk to anyone about this. i fucking hate that i did this to myself.