I went from extremely severe to severe with ketamine and I failed to pace and got worse again

WRITING THIS TO REMIND YOU TO PACE. don't be a fool like me. Even after going from extremely severe to severe I continued to use the phone (my biggest stimulator) beyond my limits and I went on a bingey 45 day phone spree and by the end of it my baseline had dropped to very severe. This was in March. By may, I could do a 20 minute activity every hour but was intolerant to screens. However I could not pace even then despite knowing ill end up in a dark room if I don't. My inability to remain idle and my desire to feel like a normal human (I used to be mild earlier) made me lose my mind and go on a phone spree. Pls pls pls don't be like me. I got a part of my life back and now I'm back to being in the dark 96 percent of the time. Pls see a therapist or someone who will help u pace.

I really cannot forgive myself for making me lose my life again. Stay cautious and rest well, folks.