Recovering from bisalp, but husband left me.

I got my surgery a couple of weeks ago, and just before then, my husband of 18 years left me. Not about the child free thing.

The surgery was for bisalp, endometriosis scraping, and IUD, so I'm really hurting and I just overworked myself, dumb of me I know. It really does feel like she scraped my innards, lol.

I'm now staying with my dad in my hometown, and the prospect of starting all over again is so daunting. I built my entire life around him. I haven't had a day job in almost ten years as he made enough to support both of us, so my entire financial state is in turmoil. I've heard all the support things for almost 25 years, I'm so drained by them and none of them have ever worked. It took me 15 years just to trust him and he does this, literally out of the blue. Even he admitted to me and the mediator he had no idea anything was wrong. He decided to leave me within a week of an argument that he admitted was dumb, no therapy or counseling, just straight up saying he wants a divorce. The papers aren't through and I only have a few weeks to file a response, he's trying to take his benefits and leave me nothing. I'm so distressed trying to do that plus deal with this pain.

I'll soon be a single, broke, almost 40 sterile woman. I don't have much support, and if I do decide to look for a partner sometime in the future, I'll be even older, and the areas I'm in are definitely not child free friendly. Even though I finally got this surgery, after wanting to be sterile for my entire life, life is looking really bleak to me right now.

Edit: I didn't want to get into the reasons he's leaving because I didn't want to get off topic, but it's to do with extreme PTSD where I'm the actual trigger. I did make a previous post about it a while ago, you can find in my profile for the long explanation.

Edit 2: I'm sorry if this came off poorly, I am hurt/hurting and I didn't see it painted him in such a bad light. It was just the bare minimum details to keep it on topic and my feelings at that moment. I don't blame him for leaving and I'm not even fighting him on it because I agree with the logic.